Before October done, i wanna tell you that this month is totally magically for me.
October is the month who teach me how to be real woman..
I know now, i'm not daddy's lil girl again, i can't act too spoiled like before again, cause i had a husband rite now..
But, i'm surely know that i'm not yet a woman.. But, i try so hard to be more better. To be real woman..
Being a wife in 25th is my purposed when i was in high school nd guess what? I'm 25th rite now nd i'm a wife.. My dreams come true! Birthday nd marry in October.. :D
But, wait!
The saddest part when i'm married is when i left my house nd follow my husband to stay with him.
I must leave my parents..
I must leave my close lil brother..
I must leave my bed room who i lived there since junior school..
I know i still can visit them all the time, but... Seriously, it's too hard for me cause i never been stay far away from them..
But.. That's a life anyway..
You should find something new, learn more nd survive to out there with new life nd it just beginning..
Nd i'm happy with it! :D
After long married furlough, i through the day more 'hard' than i ever did before..
I'm goin to the radio like always as my job.. But, before i go to the radio, i should cooking some meal for lunch for me, my husband & granny [I stay at my husband granny's house].
As you know, before married, all i need is prepared by my mom, nd now.. i should prepare by myself.. Cooking, goin to market to buy vegetables, chilli, onion, fish ball, chicken etc..
At the first, it feels like i totally exhausting to do all that stuff, but, luckily, i had a husband with willingness to help me to do all the things i can't handle by my self. Yap! he's so lovely. Lucky me..
Nd i feel so excited to do my job as a new wife.. :D
The other day of my new life.. I a bit hard to explain somethin i couldn't explain too much..
I realize that i'm not physically beautiful, but i try to be beautiful in my own way nd i hope people around me knowing it..
I'm happy to be me, i'm happy to be who i am than i'm not.
I'm not a girl, nd not yet a woman. I just ordinary people who could be sad if people start to compare me, rush me..
Don't rush me, don't comparing me .. Just look at me, like ka Dion ever said to me that i'm beautiful just the way i am.. :)
I'm not weak nd i don't want to be weak.. I could through the day even it feels so hard but i'll enjoy it nd i'll sing along in the middle...
I should happy with my life, new experience with my husband..
I'll never let other people watchin me suffer..
Weeelll.. I learn a lot in October..
I cry, i laugh, i'm in love in different way of my new life..
I wish i could be more billion better than before..
Being a good wife nd a good mother for my kids someday.. :)
Thankyou, October..
I'll catch you in the other great story..
-Oct, 27th-
